| Overview of the summer |
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| 11:30pm 27/08/2005 |
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Since we only have 3 days left of summer, i decided that it would be time for me to update.
For all that has happened this summer:
I would have to say that I have personally grown over the last few months. There have been some very personal and valuable lessons that I will keep with me always. Some of those were taught at camp (boy do i miss that place). However, most of the things I have gathered were right here in Macomb. I will never forget the jewish star. The bond that we formed this summer is going to bring us many more fun and memorable times. <3 The special times with my best friend of all won't be forgotten either. I hope that this amazing relationship continues to grow. Without him I wouldn't have this personal list of things that I wanted to get done this summer. Most of the things on it were accomplished (i saw who I wanted to see, I scrapbooked tons, and plenty more) I did not, however, finish "The Wedding" yet.
And that brings me to things that I hope for Senior Year:
One thing I pray for, but I know won't happen is thar senioritous doesn't kick in too early. I've worked my butt of this far so I don't want to mess it up now. I must finish that book. As for the rest; I don't want to have any expectations. That way I can make the best out of ANYTHING that pops up. And most importantly i want to have fun.
eek. college next year |
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| this is gonna be a long one |
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| 09:27pm 12/06/2005 |
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I just ended my recitals that have been taking over my life. However, I did have an AMAZING time. I do have to say some shows were better than others, but they all made lasting memories. I can't ever forget our "gf club" Thinking about how much fun i had, I get saddened that our whole production is changing. I pray that i don't lose some of the great friends I have made when it comes time to audition. There are a few girls that I wouldn't mind never dancing with again, but I may have to.
About auditions, June 18th is the day of all truths. i have NO clue what to expect. i need to remember Miss Susanne's comment on the last day of dance. She really thinks I have been great in ballet. wooh. then Miss Sue told my mom that I've been doing great. So did Miss Danielle. I hope that they aren't just saying that because I pray for my wish to come true.
One another note, I'm happy how things have been with a good pal of mine. Things haven't been so hot lately. Things seem to be getting better. However, thing with my father and I have not. And that sucks because I don't know what to do anymore and no one can completely relate to me. I am a person that need to talk out their problems or else they just build up inside of me. But talking to this man is as helpful as hitting my head against a brick wall. Thanks to my friends that have been trying to help. You are very needed in my life.
Well, enough of that because it just upsets me. On tuesday, Vee, Emily, and I are driving to the Silver Dome to work at the graduation commencement. I hope it's fun.
Plus i wish that school would just be done with. I hate getting out over a week later than everyone else. I want summer to be here so I can actually lay out in the sun. i HATE being so pale. Plus, I'm excited to start working at Dairy Queen again. I'll have cash :)
Ich muess schlaufen. |
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| finally updated |
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| 09:08pm 15/05/2005 |
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my weekend was good. i caught up on the OC finally. too bad i will have to miss the season finale. NOBODY better ruin it for me. then me and ryan hung out with ricky and lisa. and i got a hair cut at midnight. but i really like it. it might just be my favorite new style.
saturday night i went shopping with my mommy and got some great deals. i felt like i hadn't shopped in ages. i got two pairs of shoes, capri's, a belt, and a cammi for about $50. I am sweet. then i hung out at ryans with some AMAZING people.
I saw HaiRsPraY today :) it was pretty cool. very energetic. i wish i could sing along with my dancing because i would LoVE to perform like that. Maybe i could be a tapper in River Dance (which i get to see on Thursday) Im super excited for that. This year i have been really drawn to it. and just think... i wanted to quit a few years ago. Maybe because i had low confidence in my performance, but now i can really pick up on it. well at least i think i can :/
now my tummy hurts because i ate spicy food at the HarD Rock
besides all that-- the situation with my dad stays in my mind. no matter what im doing i get reminded of it but i just don't know what to do :( |
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| What a day |
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| 09:48pm 09/04/2005 |
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I'm not sure if today could have been worse. well i guess it could have, but I was feeling pretty low. I was going into things with high expectations, but would be let down.
first of all I took the ACTs this morning. I did many hours of preparation in the last couple of weeks. Also, had all of my items that i needed ready the night before and i made myself a nice breakfast. The first to sections seemed to go alright, even though i didn't get to the last 5-10 questions. the reading and science were horrible. I swear i guessed on every single answer. it was ridiculous. I feel that i didn't do as well as i planned, but i really don't want to have to take it again.
After the test I had to go to Dads. Again i thought it would be a simple weekend; one that i could spend time with the fam, but still be able to do things that i wanted to do. I wasn't prepared for what would happen. After I drove while balling my eyes out, I came to the conclusion that I need a one-on-one conversation with my dad. This is something that i had NEVER done before. i'm still debating how good it was to get it all out there.
on the other hand, the was some good to the day. i spent most of the night with my sibling that I don't see much. Moreover(a word I used on the ACT) a relationship between a fabulous friend of mine is restoring itself :) That makes me veryy happy
what an unusual day.. |
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| Spring Break |
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| 03:04pm 30/03/2005 |
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Time off of school is nice. It gives me time to study for these ACTs. I don't know about others, but I REALLY want to take them ONCE. So I have been studying extra hard.
Besides all the stress of school and stupid standardized tests.... hanging out with friends has been great. Ever since I turned 17, life has been different. I have learned a lot from the people around me, however I don't think that they realize it. The last couple months have been difficult.
"The quicker you realize that it's not going to work out, the sooner you can move on" --The O.C. |
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| 11:18pm 27/03/2005 |
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I'm finally starting this new livejournal. I don't know how much i will be writing in here. But it's pretty sweet, i guess.
<33 |
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